Jan 17

Today is a very hard day for me it has been 5 years since my Mom passed away...i miss her so very much i am still trying to remember all the wonderful things about her to write down but even after 5 years my heart still is heavy
she was a women ahead of her times,she went to school until she was 9, but she taught her self English how to read and write in both Spanish and English, she traveled all over the US with my dad she worked helping my dad build the business they owned she cared for all of us kids and taught us all to be self sufficient, even Melissa is the caring person she is because of my mom.
she picked cotten and worked as a florest she had my 2 older brothers 10 months apart in 1947 can you imagine with out pampers formula she would wash there clothes in the Guadalupe river, she said my aunt Maria and uncle Lupe helped out a lot and she had both of them at home my grandmother helped deliver them both.
when you tried to tell her or ask her things she would tell you at the beginning of the story, this is how ignorant i am... when she and the boys moved to Utah she told me of how they drove through New Mexico with the windows up because of the shows she had watched about the indians she was scared of them so no AC in a car but the boys had to have the windows up...
she would talk about segregation and how she could not eat in certain places and how ugly people were and yet there were kind people out there she told me a story of how she tried to sit at a counter and they threw her out of the cafe
she would talk about WW II and how they would listen on the radio to see who passed away
i remember the boys and dad going hunting and mom cleaning the deer and fixing the meat in our garage and these were mule deers not the little baby's from Texas
she was always there for all of us no matter what ever time i had a baby where ever i was she came and did the same for Alecia when she stayed with us she would clean the house and organize she would cook us meals that James still raves about her home made tortillas were the best..
the day i got married she told me to enjoy sex as much as i can because when you get old and sick it was really hard i thought Janice was going to pass out when she heard my mom say that....
she made the best quilts she would tell me that if i went out ALWAYS wear lipstick and rouge even if i had a house coat on and she Loved her pearls i have this box in a drawer in my desk a few days before she passed she had bought some face powder on sale and i have a box that i still open and smell
she loved to garden, i think that is where i get my love of gardening & cooking is from her .her rose buses were always so pretty
there is so much and yet i just can not seem to get it all out